I couldn’t do it
I’m sorry I hurt everyone
i know you guys care
it’s just hard to feel it
and I’m losing everything
I can’t find a second job and my only job isn’t good enough
I’m stuck here and Bob’s only making things unbearable
my computer and phone
so I wouldn’t be able to talk to anyone, anyways.
It would be p much like I was dead anyway
if I ever do get a chance to come back
it won’t be on this blog
or my vent blog
I’m too ashamed of myself to come back here
I’m going to kill myself
I oured my heart out and explained while I was goine three times already and my laptop went and erased everything
I think I will go drink that bleach now
even if I don’t I’m losing everything
and I mean
so who cares, right?
I’m sure none of you do
god I fucking hate everyuthing
I don’t think you realize that I can’t “move on”
I have a little thing called “anxiety”
and I’m going to lose sleep over this.
I need to stop expecting people to acknowledge I exist.
No matter how lonely I get, I need to remember that I deserve this.
I don’t even want to do anything with myself right now other than lay down and cry my self to sleep
I’m such a fucking disgusting human being
I can’t even believe myself
I just hurt someone and I’m rolling around on this stupid blog playing victim
I just wish this anxiety would go away
I wish this depression would go away
I wish I would go away
But the more I open up, the more I hate myself and the person I’ve become.